Firsts.

Happy Saturday! (: I hope you had a wonderful day. 

This week has been full of a lot of firsts. 

I've never tried a blog feed before. After trying to go through all my favorite blogs after vacation and camp, I realized it's something I really need as my blog and the number of blogs I read continue to grow! I'm trying Bloglovin currently. We will see how it goes (: Follow me!

I have never counted calories daily before. I started using MyFitnessPal on my iphone and I really enjoy it! I like knowing what's healthy, otherwise I feel like I eat too many or too little calories. Follow me: Ea2797

I know I had no breakfast and a huge lunch, but my day was NOT a normal schedule, I promise (;

I've never had my run analyzed before! Since Cross Country camp has my weekly mileage between 20-30 and above and I have been starting to get shin pains, I decided to buy some new shoes. I went to a fancy running store and had my run analyzed on a treadmill. Apparently I am pretty neutral, so that's good (I think?). I ended up picking the Saucony Ride 6. 

They are so beautiful!! (:

They are so bright- I love it!!

Seriously, these are so much more fun than my old shoes! 

These are so boring compared to my new babies.

I got fitted for the shoes yesterday, but the store only had ugly colors, so I waited to buy them until today when they got in their new shipment. 

Today I was SUPPOSED to have my first trail run and longest run with the team (70 minutes!) However, I had a roller-coaster kind of night as far as blood sugars, and I ended up waking up with a really high number and ketones. Ketones pretty much mean my body is messed up from all the extra sugar. I had moderate ketones, so I didn't have to go to the hospital, but I had to rest and flush them out. No long run for me.. I was really upset. It was 5 in the morning and I had already gotten ready when I realized I felt pretty sick and tested for ketones. 

I wasn't going to keep that from letting me run! I still had a lot of hours left in the day. I picked up the new shoes and headed to the Y. I did 6 miles in my new shoes, with a few walking breaks. Running goes by SO much faster outside with the team! It was lonely at the Y, even with Say Yes To The Dress and Friends to keep me company :(. 

I want to apologize for being so MIA recently. I have been trying to really enjoy a week of my summer just relaxing (besides the whole running every morning thing). I will get back to blogging regularly soon, I promise (: 

How was your week? Have you ever been to a running specialty store? What blog feed do you use? 

~Emily

The diabetes monster strikes again

I have Type 1 Diabetes. I haven't talked about diabetes much on this blog. Mainly, it's because while diabetes is PART of my life, it is not my WHOLE life. 

That wasn't true last night. Last night, diabetes controlled me. 

In the afternoon, I had a site change. That is the pink thing stuck to my tummy. 

Ignore my PJ pants (:

There is a little tube inside of me (under the pink thing) and the pink thing connects to tubing that connects to the insulin pump. The insulin pump then constantly pumps insulin into my body, and more at mealtimes when I tell it what I eat. More on that later.

In the middle of the night, I must have tossed and turned and ripped out the pump site. It rips out like a bandaid, so it isn't that difficult. I probably went about 5 or 6 hours without insulin. 

When I woke up at 4 in the morning, I instantly felt very sick. I saw that my pump site had been pulled out. My number was 355. Pretty high. I knew I was probably entering or in DKA. 

What does high blood sugar feel like to me? Well, first there is the unquenchable thirst. Then comes the peeing, since when you are constantly thirsty you constantly drink water and... well, you get the idea. Then I start to feel confused, crabby, and I get headaches. I get dizzy and when it's really bad, I throw up. Now, since I was sleeping, I didn't notice the signs until I got dizzy and woke up. I spent the next hour throwing up. 

I gave three shots, and eventually got down to 180. Half decent. I was so exhausted at that point that I just went to sleep.

Diabetes sucks. I can't deny that. Last night was one of those nights when I question my ability to do anything. It's difficult to believe in yourself if you lose control of your body and your health- and it's not your fault in any way. I'm questioning my ability to run, especially with the cross country girls this summer. I'm questioning my ability to even have a job. Who will want to have someone this problematic in their office/store? Who will want someone so messed up on their team?

I'm exhausted. Will I run today? We'll see. I was planning on doing three miles fast, but maybe I'll take three miles slow. 

I know this post wasn't hopeful, but not every moment in life is good. That's okay. I know I'll get through this. 

~Emily